“Make sun the metaphor for you and moon for me.”
You were the sun and I was your moon. I never thought the sun could give up on the moon ever. It doesn’t work that way, right?! The sun’s job is to illuminate moon, no matter what, as long as the black hole doesn’t swallow the entire galaxy in its cosmic mouth.
You broke all your promises as if they were never made. You changed your words as if you never meant it. You walked away silently seeing me crying, begging you to not leave. Didn’t it make your heart weak? Was your pride more important than the bond we shared?
I won’t blame you. It was my mistake that I let you walk over me again & again, time after time. I was blinded in love. I wouldn’t see anything beyond the false perception of you I had in my head. You were toxic to core. You poisoned me in a way that I doubted my worth and questioned my place in your life. Love doesn’t do that. When in love you need not demand or ask. It only gives, relentlessly.
I thought you’d change with time. But, I was wrong. I gave thousand of second chances to you and each time you took advantage of my vulnerability. You always said that I’m at fault, all the time. Yes, it was my fault to love you with whatever little has left inside me and with already shattered pieces of my heart.
Love doesn’t judge, but you judged me every time and made me feel guilty for the way I am. Love forgives, but you never accepted me with my flaws. Love doesn’t disappear when things are not going right. It stays and fight against the odds together. For love it’s never “its way or highway.” It heals you. It helps you grow into a better human being. Till then it stays patient with you and tolerate the crap you throw at it. If you ever truly loved, you will never leave over a thing that won’t matter after a few months down the line.
You were a lesson which I learnt beautifully with sharp edges of the sword slitting my neck gently. It was dramatic, you know. I didn’t scream or complain. It was meant to happen. I gave you the power over me. I made you mine, but you never were. I’m finally done with your toxic love.