As I write this letter to you, I am reminded of the first letter that I wrote to you back in class eleventh. I can’t believe that was so long ago, And how far we have come. All those years and memories come rushing back to me, just as the waves touch the shore; violently, yet creating an eerie calm. I wish that I could see you right now, feel the warmth of your hand in mine, and forget everything else. But all I have is your love, memories, and your fragrance that soothed me.
We are miles apart, and it’s been weeks since I’ve heard your voice. My only consolation is that we’re both looking at the same sky. I could tell you that I want you to come back, but I won’t. Because I know you belong to the country first, and then, to me. There are other people and things that require your attention. Believe me when I say that I miss you more than anything in this whole wide world. But all these years of separation have made me strong. Not strong enough to live without you, but strong enough to survive.
Just when I am caught in the vortex of longing and ache, I see you face and I know it’s worth it. I recall all the times we spent together and think of all that is yet to come, and I know no amount of distance or time and separate us. Honestly, I spent a great deal of time in preparing myself for your field posting! But even after all the time I had spent in imagining it, I was still at a loss of words. Nothing can be compared to the pain of watching you going away.
You are so loved, Captain sahab! There’s not a minute when I’m not proud of you. Know that as you fight for us, and protect us, there’s someone waiting for you back home. I hold you in my heart like a flower pressed between the pages of a book on a long forgotten summer. Take care and stay safe. Godspeed!